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Name: Gloria
Location: Knoxville, Tennessee, United States
Birthday: 2/16/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Piano playing, hanging out w/ friends, drawing, reading, playing tennis, shopping, chatting, and goin to church~ :-p
Expertise: Da church pIaNo pLaYa~ and helping ppl with their problems ^__~
Occupation: Student
Industry: Hospitality
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AIM:  pianistangel
Member Since:
12/20/2003
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| alright... so it's almost 5 a.m. right now and i'm still wide awake. Caffeine pills really do work! But... it's really weird. My hands are shaking a lot... like so much that it's hard to write and type. Part of my face is starting to twitch a lil bit, which is really weird, my face is sorta tingly, and my head feels really heavy. And i feel really dizzy now too... *sigh* i'm not gonna get any sleep tonight... i have to be in the library in a few hours to ask for help... then i have to go straight to work, then straight from work to class, but i think i'm gonna take a quick, short nap after my class... we'll see how much stuff i have left after tonight... i actually did a lot today~
And would it be dangerous to take another caffeine pill once this one starts to wear off? cause i'm afraid of crashing... and i can't do that at work... i have to be awake and alert....esp to drive! and i have to be awake for class.... i'll think about it...
ok, enough rambling. back to work. No one ever reads this stuff anyways~
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| ok, so i have a question. Are caffeine pills really bad for you?? I mean, on the box it says one pill has the same amount of caffeine as a cup of coffee. Doesn't seem too bad i think~
I dunno... I only had 2 hours of sleep last night, and i need to stay up all night tonight and tomorrow night and the only way I know how to do that is through caffeine pills. One of my friends suggested that I take adderall, the prescription drug to help me stay awake. He said that it helps you focus soo much on what you need to focus on and that you stay awake all night with no problems. But i'm not gonna go that far~ It's illegal, isn't it? And isn't it dangerous? I dunno... it sounds sketchy to me, and risky.I'm not gonna do it, don't worry. But i did just take 2 caffeine pills. I never took them before so i don't know what to expect really. The box said take either half a tablet or a whole tablet every 3-4 hours, but i just took 2 so that it would last longer....  alright... i guess i better stop wasting more time and get to work.
This is gonna be a long night..... and a really really long week....
*sigh*
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| God, you are so amazing. For the longest time now i've felt so distant from you, but recently you've showed me that you were always by my side and for the first time in a long time I am truly happy. I feel such an overwhelming sense of peace, something that i haven't felt in a long time. I wake up each Sunday morning excited to go to church and now when i read my Bible, it's like reading a brand new book, each verse more meaningful than the last. Eventhough i've read the same verse soo many times before in my life, when i read it now it's as if i've never seen it before. You have filled my heart with love and gladness, and i praise you for that. Also God, thank you so much for the people you've placed in my life to meet. They have been so encouraging and i don't know if i would be where i am today if it weren't for them.Once i got back to school this year, i felt like i was worthless...
like i was unworthy to have God forgive me for all my past mistakes and
that i was meant to be unhappy. I couldn't sleep because i kept on
having so many bad dreams, and i felt alone... i felt so alone in my struggles and it felt like no one was there to encourage me. Each time i fell from you and tried to get back, it never lasted because i had no one there to really support me or help me. I almost became an alcoholic last year because i was buried so deep in the lifestyle that i was living, and one night i went driving after i was drunk because i just didn't care anymore about my life or about what happened...I felt hopeless.... I almost gave up on you, but you've helped me through those times and you never gave up on me, even after everyone else did. Please help me to stay this way and to not fall away from you again like the countless times i have in the past. Please keep me strong and never leave my side.
i realize now how big of an influence some people can be. You may think that you're strong enough to change a person, but if you're not strong, then that person will just drag you down to the way they are, and before you know it, you'll be trapped in a lifestyle with no hope and no happiness. I'm glad things happened the way they did, because if they didn't, i would still be the same person i was in the past. I would still be doing the same things and still living the same way.
Sometimes, things may happen that you don't understand, and things will fall apart all around you and it may feel like nothing can ever be better...it may feel like God isn't with you anymore and that he doesn't hear you when you pray, but i've learned that through those times, God is always with you, and he's just waiting for you to truly repent and come back to him. When it feels like God isn't listening, he is. He's always there by your side. Hard times are what shape us into the person we are. If it weren't for the hard times, we'd never be able to truly appreciate the good times. And if life didn't have any struggles or hardships, we'd never be able to grow into the person we are today.
Psalm 138
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| God, I need you now... more than ever. I'm tired of feeling so distant to you. I'm tired of living a life that doesn't glorify you. Please Lord, i'm going through such a tough time right now...It feels like everything's falling apart all around me...and i feel so alone... God, i need you to help me through this storm...
Below is one of my favorite songs, and the song i'm listening to now. read the lyrics. It's very powerful I think:
"Praise You In This Storm"
By: Casting Crowns
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
(You can hear this song on my myspace: www.myspace.com/pianistangel )
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| a list of korean dramas i want to watch b4 school starts:
I"m sorry I love you
Save the last dance for me: http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=save+the+last+dance+for+me+part+1&search=
i'll add more later after i watch these.
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